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True Love Beyond Love and Hate

By Ms. Yumi Tani, Okayama, Japan

This is my first attempt at a reality post.

I recently attended a Miross intensive course with Instructor Ms. Maki, titled
“How does the energy of conflict give rise to reconciliation?”
It gave me a sensation of awakening and impacted my soul so much that I was turned 180 degrees upside down, unlike anything I had ever experienced before.

I was so happy to have found the answer I had been looking for all my life. I couldn’t think of anything else, and for a while after the course, I couldn’t move.I realized that I could see people, but I didn’t really know myself, even though I wanted to.

I can’t believe I can use the blueprint of consciousness (the Miross system) and know myself through the people in front of me! And the more negative the event or person is, the more it can create a whole new counter-generated, awesome world when it matches my inner self!

I have finally encountered it! This is it! I’ve been waiting for this moment for a long time. Why am I so moved? I’ll go back in time and share my story with you.

Since elementary school, I’ve wondered why history repeats itself. The family tree on both my mother’s and father’s sides of the family showed divorce, illness, and repeated unexpected deaths roughly three to five generations before me.

I wanted to break the family’s negative chain of events in my generation! This thought began to sprout in my mind when I was 10 years old. In junior high school, I experienced school truancy and delinquency. There were times when things were so hard that I wanted to die.

I grew up in a well-off family with parents, grandparents, and an older brother, but I resented the strict discipline I was subjected to. Whenever something happened to me, I would think, “Oh, I don’t matter anyway…” or “If only I didn’t exist…”. I lived my life in a despicable way. That’s when I met the man who became my husband.

At the time, I was unaware that this world was reversed and that it was made up of my own beliefs. I got married when I was 18 years old. On my wedding day, I experienced a complete change from heaven to what became the beginning of hell. I was, of course, unaware of the mechanism that made something like this take place.  My mother and grandmother had both had problems with their reproductive system. I myself developed endometriosis in middle school.

A few months after I was married, a gynecologist diagnosed me as having a “constitution that makes it difficult to have children.” My husband accepted me as I was, and gave up his position as the eldest son and heir to the family.
Fortunately, six months later, I gave birth to a daughter.

However, this was the beginning of another painful experience. When I became a mother, I didn’t want my children to go through the same difficult experience as I did! This thought was reinforced by the things around me.

Living with my husband’s parents, I felt a sense of inferiority and worthlessness.
The harder I tried, the worse it became. There were even times when I contemplated death along with my daughter, who was still a baby.

As she grew older, her ego emerged and she began to touch my wounds. This sometimes shocked her to the point that she later needed surgery. This was a consequence of my puberty, a part of the past that I wanted to erase. As a reliving of this, my daughter and son stopped going to school.

However, their lack of attendance at school led me to encounter the Miross system through someone who invited me to a workshop and reunited me with the Hidamari organizer, Ms. Motomi Fukutake.

I wondered, why do I experience so much pain? My life was full of unresolved doubts, insecurities, and fears. I hated my parents and have been on a journey to find my place away from them. But what are parents? I didn’t understand. So I had lived my life taking revenge on them by playing the role of an unhappy daughter. I had no idea that the energy of that revenge was directed at me at the same time!

I am most surprised at how the way I look at my parents has changed since taking the Miross curriculum. I had been thinking, “What do you mean by ‘change in an instant?’” I had always wondered. But the moment my consciousness really changed, I saw my parents as different people! It was amazing.

Furthermore, when I saw the photo of the birth of Ms. Midori’s niece’s baby, featured in her second book, Let’s Dance Lightly through the Ages, Filled with the Echoes of Time, I felt the will to be born by choosing your parents—the will to evolve the human race by evolving oneself. I felt such a solid beginning. What does it mean to get to one’s very essence? I want to understand it, and will keep reading further. I am very happy to have encountered Miross!

Mr. Rossco, Ms. Midori, thank you for bringing us the blueprint of consciousness.